I’ve been working on a JALLI fan fiction for a short while, I wanted to know what y’all thought of it. :) 

“Saved your life.” Jake laughed as he set me down on the beach.
“More like, almost ended it.” I laughed back as I hit him across the shoulder.
He chuckled lightly as he touched where I hit him, to show that he felt it, but it didn’t make a difference.
“How’s the water, sis?” Cody said as he came up behind Jake. I rolled my eyes.
“You both better watch out.” I said to them.
Cody shrugged and they both went out with their boards onto the beach.
Ruby and Sophie gave me a look. I couldn’t make out what they were trying to tell me. Ruby had her arms crossed and Sophie lifted her eyebrow.
“What?” I finally asked.
“You know what, Alli” Sophie said.
“No… I really don’t.” I responded.
“You…” Sophie began, “and Jake…” Ruby finished.
“Wait, what?!” I asked shocked.
“C’mon. It’s obvious! I think you can tell us!” Ruby said.
“Tell you what?” I asked, almost screaming.
“You and Jake! You’re together.” Sophie said as she put her hands together.
“…What?!” I was still confused.
“Alli! You and Jake. You’re dating! You’re…. Jalli!” Ruby finished.  

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This is not what I needed. I didn’t need another problem on top of another problem. They were adding up and they were stacking quickly.
“Brooklyn, why are even you here?” I quietly asked annoyed as my forehead wrinkled. It was said more as of a statement than a question. I was across the damn country and we still seemed to see more of each other than we should’ve. Whoever said “It’s a small world,” was right. This must be a pretty darn small world if she happened to be here. I took a deep breath. This wasn’t the time to blow up.
“Cody’s my friend,” she made the emphasis on ‘my friend’ and even to me it didn’t sound right.
“I’m here to support him, obviously. Do you have a rule with him that says I can’t see him?” she asked, smiling. Why she was smiling? I had no clue.
“I came at a good time too, seeing your boyfriend mack on a girl right in front of you. Kind of like what you did to me, huh?” she said. I was reminded Caleb was standing right there when he spoke.
“I’d appreciate it if you didn’t talk to my friend like that.” He defended. I turned to look at him to alert him to stop. I didn’t want Caleb a part of this. This was my fight, it wasn’t his.
She ignored him.
“Karma’s a bitch, isn’t it?” she said. She took another stab at me, like I did at her when we saw each other at Disneyland.
Deep breaths. I always found myself reminding myself to breath. It was as if it wasn’t automatic, but I knew that I had to tell myself so that I wouldn’t do something wrong. It calmed me. My shoulders rested and my hands unclenched.
I took a deep breath and let it out.
“You’re pathetic, you know that.” I told her. Arguing wasn’t classy. Swearing wasn’t classy. But, I guess sometimes people do it and it happens and you can’t take it back. I would never take back anything I said to her, because it was all true. She had ice where her heart was supposed to be.
 There was no problem with being friends with Cody, not at all, it was just the fact that she wanted me out. I don’t see why my being there made an effect on her.
She just laughed and laughed.
“I’m pathetic? This is coming from the girl who stole MY boyfriend from me. You were never supposed to be back in the picture, okay? So go back to where you belong, because it isn’t here!” she said louder. It sounded so childish. It didn’t even hit me at all, it sounded stupid to hear it from here, like a child fighting over a toy. It made me giggle.
I looked to see Caleb at my side. I knew he was smart enough not to do anything he’d regret. But, I could see his hands clenching and his jaw tensing.
“and, cut!” I heard Marcus say. Cody would soon realize Brooklyn was here and this would be a scene. She would make it bigger than it was supposed to be. She would be take her spotlight and beg for attention.
“Hey, Brooke.” Cody said tensely. He sounded confused, but I wasn’t sure because I hadn’t even looked at his face. I was too focused on which angle I might’ve had to punch this girl in the face.
“Hey, Codes.” She said as she ran up to hug him all happy smiley. She kissed him on the cheek as if it would bring me down. It didn’t. The only thing it made me feel was pity for Cody. He was clearly uneasy about her being here, and he probably didn’t know she’d show up by the looks of the reaction on his face.
“What’re you doing here?” he asked cautiously. Caleb tugged on my arm so that we would leave. I agreed. There wasn’t anything I’d want to see here, and the more I didn’t see, the more I didn’t need to question. I didn’t really want to speak to Cody at the time either. I wasn’t in the mood after the day I had.
Caleb walked me outside. The cool breeze lightly lifted my hair and it was nice- fresh. I needed this, I needed a cool off session. I stood with my arms crossed, mostly to warm my hands from the wind. I bit my lip, I wasn’t sure what to tell Caleb now. This would be the right time to tell him about Cody and I.
I sighed as I sat down beside him.
“So, you and Cody. It’s real?” he asked. Real. I hesitated to answer it, because I didn’t know, actually. I wasn’t sure of anything at this point. There were feelings there sometimes, but… was that because I had felt something for Cody? Had pretending to like him made me like him?
“I… I don’t know.” I answered honestly.
“Abs, how do you not know?” he asked agitated.
“I don’t. I…” I had to tell him. It was now or never.
“Here’s the thing…” I began carefully.
“Can I say something first?” he interrupted.
“Of course,” I watched him steadily. Whatever he was going to say, he didn’t seem like he wanted to say it.
He just shook his head and pierced his lips together.
“What, Caleb? Tell me.” I told him.
“You love someone else while I’m still in love with you.” He blurted out.
The words caught me off guard. They didn’t sound right coming from him. In love. The two words rang in my head. In love. Oh, how I wanted Cody to just appear and take me out of this situation. How do you tell someone you love them, but not in the way they want you to? My face transitioned from an anxious face to a worried face.
In love. I repeated it again. It didn’t sound right, still. No matter how long I’d try to let it settle in my head. But, that’s when I realized he said ‘You love someone else…’ Did he mean Cody? I shook my head. This was too much. Too much for one day. Too much for one girl to handle. Too much. Too much. Too much.
I am weak.
The pressure hit me. He was still looking at me, his wide eyes, staring at me, waiting for a response. I looked into them and I had to look away.
“I…” I struggled to look for the right words. I shook my head, again.  
“Abigail, can we talk a second?” Cody’s voice came out from by the door. I saw him come out of the building and I took a deep breath. I nodded.
I signaled Caleb that I’d be back. I hated to leave him there, but I was anxious to get out. It was too… awkward.
We walked into the building and from the corner of my eye, I saw Caleb put his hands to his head. I do love Caleb, just not in the same way. He was my friend, my best friend at most, but not what he intended us to be. A couple. I couldn’t even think of it that way. It didn’t even sound right, not even if I tried to convince myself.
It hit me, again. I just watched Cody kiss a girl, right in front of me. We weren’t together, I knew that, so I had no reason to feel the way I did. Whatever the feeling was, I wasn’t really sure. I followed behind him. I took a second to wonder where Brooklyn was, but to be honest, I could care less with her existence. Harsh, but honest.
He brought me to a back room, complete silence. I wasn’t sure of how I felt at that moment. I wasn’t sure of the feel of the room, but I was sure of the tenseness. I knew that the chill in the room made me still, I froze in fear of what he would say next. He slowly closed the door behind him, and I watched it closely as I heard the click lock it into place. I found myself thinking about Caleb, about how I just left him there. But I focused back to his footsteps that made sounds as he neared me. I leaned against the wall as I caught my balance. I didn’t want to look him in the eyes, I wasn’t sure of what he would say. But, I was relieved he got me out of that conversation with Caleb.
I had nothing to be afraid of, but his movements suggested otherwise. I looked at him so I wouldn’t look like a coward. I waited for him to speak first, but he looked upset. He didn’t look me in the eye, he look towards the floor as he leaned against the door and his hands ran through his hair slowly. His expression wasn’t excited. My heart began beating.
“What’s wrong?” I finally asked him. He didn’t even look at me, he just bit his lip. I watched his breaths as he slowly took them. I peered at him, even though he hadn’t answered my question. I wanted to just go up to him and just kiss him, to remember the feel; to comfort him a little. I couldn’t. I was too afraid, maybe it was the fear of rejection. Maybe because of the look in his eyes- the way he was hiding something from me.
“Cody…” I began. He looked up to me. His eyes directly to mine, I was beginning to get nervous. “Can I ask you something?” he finally asked. My heart was racing.
“Of course,” I answered.
“Will you answer honestly?” he wondered.
“Swear.” I assured him.
He took a long pause as he looked down to the ground and he walked back and forth once.
“You’re gonna be completely honest, right? Even if it hurts?” I sighed when he said this.
“Yes.” I agreed.
“Okay… Do you and Caleb have a-“
“There is nothing between Caleb and me, Cody.” I cut him off. I didn’t think this was coming. It was surprising. I was almost upset with him for even thinking so, just because I wanted to hang out with my friends here in New York. It got my frustrated and flustered, and I wanted to scream because the frustration just kept building and building.
“Except, that he likes you. Am I right?” I nodded. He was right, I wouldn’t lie to him about this. My eyes looked away, almost embarrassed to agree to it, because it felt as if I had lied to him with my answer before.
My heart sank when he wouldn’t even look at me. His facial expression changed, and I didn’t think it could be worse. I didn’t want to see him upset, it made me feel wrong.
“Stop it.” I said lightly as I got up and went over to him. I quickly put my arms around his neck as he steadied off the wall and shifted to me. He eventually put his arms around my waist and he held me tightly. There was a part of me that didn’t want to let go. Just like at the airport. Something holding me to him, something that wouldn’t give out.
He was the first to let go, though. He cupped my face into his hands, his touch was warm and it startled me a little. He lightly held my face and I got another good look into his eyes. Smiling. I could feel it in my cheeks, I was smiling. Eventually, he did too. I was proud of myself to see him smiling like that. He kissed my forehead.
I sat down on one of the chairs, now that it was more comfortable being in the room. Time for all honesty to come out.
“What’s wrong, now?” he asked me as he read my expression.
“I promised I’d be honest with you,” I began. He just looked at me, waiting for me to continue.
“Caleb and I use to date and it was serious but not… at the same time, does that make sense?” I asked him confused at what I was saying. He just nodded, he probably didn’t understand but just wanted me to continue. I watched him carefully.
“There’s not too much to really say, except that.” I finished.
He hesitated. I gulped before he responded.
“So, is he the guy you dumped?” he sounded almost cheery. I had to understand what he was asking, at first. I was confused. Then I had remembered I told him that the last guy I was with, I ended it.
“No, technically… it was a mutual decision…” I bit my lip. He’d find out that I had lied before, he’d be upset, I just knew it.
“What do you mean?” I decided to just tell him. He’d probably find out eventually.
“When my mom announced we were leaving New York to go to L.A, we were still dating. He, I guess, was the first guy I had ever seriously dated…” I paused to look at him, then I looked back to the floor to hide away from his expression.
“So, this was like a month before we were going to leave. We decided, together that the long distance thing wouldn’t work-“ I said. I reminded myself that this was the reason I hated long distance relationships. The feeling I got when I had to leave someone I truly cared about, and wouldn’t be able to see them for the longest time.
His expression changed. I was worried, again, and I was no longer calm. What did I do this time? I knew it was what I said, but, the whole thing did sound bad, anyways. From his perspective, of course.
He looked disappointed. I waited for him to shift his eyes to mine. I wanted to see them before I said anything else. But, he didn’t want to look at me.
“So,” he started “does that mean, if I asked you to be my girlfriend right now, you’d say no?”
My heart skipped a beat at the sound of him saying ‘girlfriend’ I wasn’t sure if he was just asking to be curious or if he was really asking. That awkward moment when you don’t know if someone is asking you out or not. He looked up to my eyes.
“I didn’t mean it literally,” he laughed as he looked up at me. Relief. Thank goodness. I wouldn’t know what to tell him.
“But, let’s just pretend…” Pretend. What an ugly word, I thought.
“I… I don’t know.” I finally managed to get out. “See, you go on tours and promos and everything all around the world, you meet pretty girls every single day it’s hard not to be-“
I thought of Brooklyn before I spoke. The way she manipulated Cody with her teary eyes, out of jealousy. Jealous. I needed to get it out.
“Jealous.” I repeated out loud.
I bit my lip as I waited for his response. He just chuckled and it calmed me down. The chills down my back settled down and I felt my shoulders relaxing. His laugh was calming and it put a smile to my face.
My face slowly made its way towards his, my hand crept around his neck, his arm settling on my waist. All my worries washed away at that moment. Our lips slowly moved closer to one another. I thought about the roof, and how a lot of things changed, then.
“Abigail…” I didn’t even hear the door open, but I looked over my shoulder to see Caleb was there, right at the door.
My heart dropped.

The worries came back.

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Sorry bout the confusion! I totally screwed up the numbers for the chapters. Baha! But this IS chapter 24! AWKWARD.

This chapter is super upsetting, I know. But, we always need some drama. Am I right?

It’s down to CODY OR CALEB. OHNO.

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I watched Madison carefully fold her clothes into her large suitcase.
“How ‘bout this one?” she asked as she held up a shirt from her closet.
“Madison, I love your whole closet it’s going to be hard to say no to anything, really.” I tried to let out a laugh.
Madison let out a sign in return.
“There’s still two days. That’s 48 hours of her being able to change her mind.” She tried to say encouragingly.
It wasn’t working.
I don’t think my mom knew how badly I wanted to go back home. Don’t get me wrong, I love L.A, I love the friends I’ve made here, but, I wanted to see my old friends. I wanted to be able to laugh around with my old friends like I was able to before. I never got a say in moving out to L.A, I didn’t object to it but I hadn’t agreed either. After living in Cali, many people would think that I would never want to go back to New York- wrong. New York was my home. New York was the centre of almost everything I had, almost everyone I knew and almost everyone who knew me lived there.
I sighed quietly to myself.
“Hey, Alli wants to Skype.” She said as she was clicking away on her laptop.
“Madison!” the computer screamed. I recognized Alli’s voice. I turned around and went in front of the computer.
“Abigail!” she screamed just as loud. Madison lowered down the volume.
“Any louder?” Madison joked.
“I cannot wait until you we all meet in New York!” she said excitedly. I could see Alli’s computer slightly bouncing up and down. She was definitely riding the tour bus right now.
Madison looked at me worried.
“What… what’s up?” Alli noticed the upset look on my face.
“Abs can’t technically go… yet.” She said as she bit her lip.
I sighed, again.
“Hey… Abs. Don’t worry about it, there will be plenty of other occasions to go to New York…” she said comfortingly.
I smiled in courtesy.
“Hey, Alli. Who are you talking to?” I heard Cody’s voice in the background.
“Yeah, Alli. Who is it?” I heard a tiny, squeakier voice ask. Tommy, most likely.
“It’s Madison and Abs, do y’all want to say hi?” she said as she looked to her left.
“Hi Abigial! Hi Madison! Look, I bought a stuffed shark!” Tom said as he pretended as if the shark was eating at the computer.
“Okay, thanks Tommy.” Alli said as she shooed him away, playfully.
“Yeah,” she said and she nodded to someone behind the computer.
I just laid my hand below my chin and played with the earring dangling from my ear.
Madison turned the computer so that Alli could still see her, she could still see Alli, and so that she could continue packing.
“I love your jeans! Are they new?” Alli asked as she pulled some of her hair passed her face and took a sip from her water bottle.
“These are the ones we got that day we got my dress, remember?” Madison said as she tugged at the jeans on her.
“Oh, right. I remember.” She laughed at her forgetfulness. I laughed silently along with her.
They went off to talk about New York and I tried draining them out. There was nothing I wanted to be aware of less than the fact that I wouldn’t be going to New York with Madison. I really hated to be such a downer, especially around such a positive pair or people. Madison and Alli were always happy-go-lucky and peppy, being around them and being so negative just wasn’t fair for them. I didn’t want to bring down their mood, not that I’m sure I could.
“Hey, Abs. Your phone’s vibrating.” Madison said as she slid my phone across the bed.
“Hello?” I answered.
“Hey there.” I heard almost an echo from the computer.
“Cody?” I guessed. He began laughing. I walked to where the computer was to see their Skype.
Cody hung up the phone when he saw me.
“You were right.” Alli said as she looked at Cody.
“Huh?” I asked as I sat down on the floor beside Madison.
“We were thinking of a way to get you in the Skype.” Alli laughed.
“Maybe just asking?” I suggested.
They began laughing, again.
My phone began ringing in my hand, again.
“Hi, Cody. May I help you?” I said through Skype as I looked at my phone.
He just laughed.
“Answer it, will you?” he laughed as he placed his phone by his ear.
“Hello? Who’s this?” I joked as I answered. I walked out into the hallway.
“We were planning this whole thing for you to come to New York, and now all of a sudden you can’t come?” he said on the other line. I could tell it was a joke but at the same time I could tell he meant what he said.
“My mom doesn’t want to compromise.” I responded.
“It might be a tad hard not to see you for the next 2 months.”
“Oh, I’m so sure.” I laughed. He chuckled lightly.
“This is where you’d say you’d miss me, too.”
“But… you didn’t say you missed me, now did you?” I laughed.
“I was trying to get it out of you first, c’mon.” he joked.
For a quick second, I had a genuine laugh. He hadn’t failed to make me happy for that second.
“Well, I’d be lying if I said I wouldn’t miss you.” He finished.
“You tease.” I laughed another real laugh. He laughed with me. My smile stretched- a real smile. I pierced my lips together and switched the phone to the other ear.
This boy was such a tease. I laughed at the thought.
“You’re really good at this acting thing. You should take a career in it.” I said it as a joke, but it was in all honesty. I was terrible at trying to pretend I was in a relationship with him, even off camera he was good at it, and I still hadn’t changed- I was the same old awkward girl.

“Hey, Madison! Abigail! Can you both come down for a second?”
“Sure thing, Liz!” I said as Madison’s mom called for us from downstairs.
“Madison, your mom is calling for us.” I said.
She hurried out the door.
“I’ll talk to you later, okay?” I said into the phone.
“Sure thing. I’ll Skype you later.” He said. I hung up the phone.
Almost a sigh of relief. It had been the first time I had talked to him in weeks. I didn’t want to bother him after his shows because I knew he’d be super tired, but I hadn’t known if he’d ever had enough rest for me to call him, just to check up on him and Alli. I mean, they were my friends, after all.
“What do you think she needs?” Madison asked confused.
“I don’t know.” I said as I followed her down the stairs.
—-
“Mom, what are you doing here…?” I asked confused.
“How ‘bout you both sit down first.” Michelle suggested.
Madison and I stared at each other, we both hadn’t known what was going on.
“We decided…” My mom looked at Michelle as she paused, “I’m going to allow you to go on this trip with Michelle and Madison.” My mom said to us, but it was directed to me. My jaw hung open.
“Are you serious, Liz?!” Madison asked excited.
“Yes,” Madison looked towards her mom, almost as if she was proud.
I wasn’t sure if I was dreaming, so just in case I pinched the skin by my wrist. It hurt.  I was definitely awake. This wasn’t a dream.
I quickly got up and gave my mom a big hug, and Madison came up behind me and joined in.
“Come in here, mom!” Madison said as she took her hand away from the group hug to gesture to her mom to come in the hug. She hadn’t resisted.
My eyes got blurry as I felt tears coming from my eyes. Happy tears. Really happy tears.
“Aw! Abs!” Madison said as she let go and hugged me. I laughed as I wiped the tears from my eyes.
“Better start packing.” My mom said calmly as she smiled at me.
What ever Michelle did to convince my mom worked. I was glad. My forced smile from before was no longer forced. It was automatic. If it was possible, it felt like my smile was leaping off my face in excitement.

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“We’re soon going to take flight, please leave your tray tables in their upright position…” the flight attendant said into the intercom. I tuned her out, pulled down the window and I shut my eyes and leaned it again the side of the window.
I had never been so grateful in my life. Leaving NYC and coming to LA never felt right. When I left last year, I was leaving everything I had and starting all over. A couple of my friends told me they would be waiting at the airport for me, and that got me extremely excited. I hadn’t seen them forever and I couldn’t wait to just be able to talk to them, face to face, without a computer screen or a telephone separating us all apart. Not to mention the 2,778 miles in between L.A and New York.
Our flight departed at 6AM, Pacific time, meaning, that would be 3AM in New York. It would be almost 12PM L.A time when we landed in New York, which is 9AM their time. Time differences were confusing.
“Abs,” Madison said quietly as she nudged me
“Yeah?” I asked with my eyes still closed.
“In 5 and half hours we’re going to be in New York. How does that make you feel?” she asked as she pretended to put a microphone to my face. I began laughing.
“Could you just imagine Cody being at the airport ready to kiss you, again.” She laughed. I had almost forgotten about that. It had been so long and I hadn’t talked to him since the day he left up until 2 nights ago. I remembered the feelings that rushed across my body when he kissed me on my forehead. Chills ran through my body remembering the feeling. Good chills.
“You make it sound like we were making out or something. Geez, Madison.” I rolled my eyes, jokingly. “It’s all an act, either way.”
“Are you kidding me?” Madison snapped, not angrily but, she seemed was shocked.
“Huh?”
“You really don’t- Wow. I…” she stopped mid sentence and laughed as she shook her head.
I didn’t know what to respond, so I didn’t. I laid my head against the window, again.

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YAY! SHE’S GOING TO NYC!
These two chapters are tad boring without Cody, but hey, she’s going to New York, that could mean a lot ;)

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Be ready for chapter 19 tomorrow @ 5:00EST!

“Abigail, are you okay?” Cody asked as he took a sip of his coffee and put his arm tight around my shoulder.
My mind was so focused on the dream. It was so realistic. Everything was so real, even the feel of it. Even the falling.
“Yeah, I’m fine. I’m just tired.” I admitted. I wasn’t lying, I was actually very tired. I didn’t get much sleep after that dream.
We had left at around 7AM, we were probably running late.
“Well, we have an hour till we get to the shoot, you have time for a nap.” He said. I moved closer into his arms and curled myself up so as if he were shielding me. My head collapsed on his shoulder. It had fit so perfectly. His touch was comforting. I wasn’t sure what we were. That kiss changed a lot of things. What he said changed a lot of things. But, I wasn’t going to ask, now. This wasn’t the time or the place. I took a deep breath just before I closed my eyes. You never know if I’ll need an extra breath.

Ringing. I heard ringing. I was conscious. Okay, it’s real. This isn’t a dream. I sluggishly opened my eyes and reached into my purse.
“Hello?” I asked into my phone.
“Rise and shine, Abs.” A familiar male voice. Caleb.
I sat up right and Cody lightly moved his hand off of my shoulder, I almost didn’t even notice it.
“What the hell are you doing calling me so damn early in the morning?” I asked, jokingly. He’d know it.
“Oh, sorry, princess.” He laughed. I laughed a long with him.
“No, but really. Why are you calling me?”
“Hmm, someone has the tendency of forgetting things, I see.” He responded. What was he even talking about? I took a while to think about it…
“Damn it. I’m so sorry. I completely forgot.” I said to him. I was supposed to hang out with him today. We made plans, I even told him to text me about it. Damn it. Damn it. Damn it.
“It’s alright. Just tell me when you’re ready.” He said. Damn it. I feel even worse.
“Here’s the thing, I completely forgot about it. I’m with Cody right now and we’re-“
“It’s alright Abs.” he didn’t make it sound like it was alright.
“No, I’m so sorry I-“ Cody stopped me and looked at me confused.
“Can you wait a sec?” I asked Caleb
“Sure thing.” He responded.
I put the phone on hold.
“Basically, I totally forgot I was supposed to be hanging out with Caleb today and-“
“Invite him there.” Cody responded. A sigh of relief.
“Are you sure?”
“Positive.” He said confidently.
“Caleb, do you want to come to the shoot?”
“I’m down.” He said casually.

I had to owe Cody for this one, too.
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“Hey, there.” I said as I tapped Caleb on the shoulder.
I gave him a long tight hug as I tippy toed. I didn’t have to, because he wasn’t that tall, but it just seemed so normal because I usually had to tippy toe with Cody.
My head buried into his shoulder and I finally let go.
“So, what do we do at these kind of things?” He asked.
“No clue.” I responded honestly. We both began laughing. It’d be too late to tell him that I was faking with Cody, now. I didn’t know what Cody and I were anyways. It wouldn’t be fair to tell him what I didn’t know myself.
“Hey,” Cody said as he put his arms around my waist behind me and put his head lightly on my shoulder. I laughed at his childishness. He let go and stood beside me.
“Caleb, Cody. Cody, Caleb.” I introduced. They had already known each other, but I felt the need to introduce them formally. Cody had been so busy with the concert he couldn’t even remember half the people I introduced to him.
“We know, Abs.” Caleb laughed. He shook Cody’s hand firmly and they both nodded at each other.
“You both are way too formal.” I laughed.
“Follow me,” Cody said and I was about to grasp for his hand, but I stopped myself. Time to think with my head. I didn’t want Caleb to feel like an awkward third wheel.
The setting of the place was beautiful. There were white lights hanging from the ceiling dangling above our heads, tangled perfectly together. It was supposed to be a dance scene, I guessed. Maybe something like prom.
“This is for the last scene. We’re filming it today, but more to the end of the day.” he said as we passed it.
“This is where we’re starting off.” Cody said.
It was a house… technically. It was the living room of a house. Kind of. It was a set. So, part of a living room, but if positioned right, you wouldn’t have known the difference.
“So, what’s this scene all about?” Caleb asked. I was glad he was trying to be a part of it.
“First we’re doing the scene when it’s all just a bunch of friends hanging around with each other, playing games, watching movies.” I nodded as he looked at me.
“And then, the main girl and I are just going to hang out, me and her.”
“Ouu, scandalous.” I laughed.
“Yeah,” he laughed and rolled his eyes. “We just have to cuddle and stuff.”
I had to remind myself that this was all just acting. All just an act. This was a music video. But, why was I even reminding myself this? Not logical. I was thinking with my head… I think.
“Hey, Cody. They need you in wardrobe.” A lady with glasses and short brown hair told him.
“I’ll see y’all in a few, they might use you both as extras, who knows?” Cody said as he gestured to us.
“So, why did you even agree to this? This is going to be like all day long.” Caleb asked as we walked to the wall.
“It’s complicated…” I said. Maybe this was time to tell him; maybe I could just tell him the whole truth.
“Lay it on me. We have time, after all.” He was right.
“I know this sounds stupid, but I’m not even sure if I can tell you. Yeah… that does sound stupid. But trust me, it’s extremely complicated.” I admitted.
“Sure, tell me later, okay?”
“Fine.” I agreed. He laughed.
“Damn it.” I said as I looked down to my phone. Kailee had called me, but I didn’t even hear the ring.
“What?” Caleb asked.
“Want the whole story?”
“Lay it on me.”

I told him, in full detail, what happened between Kailee and me. I really just needed to tell someone, and I trusted Caleb. I full trusted him, I always had. I just went on and on about how I felt. I didn’t leave a detail out and he didn’t interrupt me once. That’s what was good about him, he always let me finish. He always just sat there and listened and nodded, but I knew he was truly concerned. That was just Caleb, he was always like that. I think that’s why he was one of my closest friends. We just really enjoyed each other’s company. He usually offered suggestions, but it never really mattered, because I was glad that he even bothered to listen to me babble on. It was nice to have someone like him. It was hard not to have him around in Los Angeles, though. But, I didn’t want to think of it like that.

He just hugged me. After I went on and on, just one hug and it felt as if for that moment, he could just get rid of it all. It was nice to feel Caleb’s warmth around me. He reminded me that I didn’t always need to be strong, that sometimes, I could just be weak for a little while. I could be brittle. I could be emotional. I could be real. It was hard to think about it. Real. For the past weeks I had been fake. The dirtiest word that seems to come out of my mouth. Fake. Fake. Fake. There’s no way of twisting it to make it seem, right anymore.
I took a deep breath. I’d call her tonight.
“Thanks,” I said as I took another deep breath.
“Don’t mention it.”
“Hey guys.” Cody said from the other side. I really hope he hadn’t seen us.
“Hey,” I said back to him and straightened my shirt.
“I was right when I said they needed extras.” He laughed.
“Are y’all up for it?” he said almost quietly. I stood up immediately.
“Sure.” I laughed. Cody let out a small laugh.
I grabbed Caleb to get up.
“I’m fine,” Caleb said, trying to resist.
“He means he’s in.” I said as I turned to look at him.
“Sure.” Caleb agreed.

—

I sat on the couch on set beside Caleb, his arm was advised to be around me and I just sat on the side, curled up with my arms around my knees, my body tilting towards his. Three other extras were on the couch with us. Cody and Lauren, I believe her name was, sat just below us on the floor. His arm was wrapped around her and she clinged on to his hand that was around her, her head laid on his shoulder.
I couldn’t help myself from looking from the corner of my eye. I knew he had been acting, but he was being so real. He laughed at everything she pretended to say, and if I hadn’t known myself, I’d think he was totally into her. I saw Cody as he turned to look at Lauren and his eyes quickly took a shot at mine. He looked almost worried. But, only I could tell, because he was only looking at me. I could see him frowning, even passed his bright smile. He was hiding something, but I wasn’t sure what. I studied him harder, I watched his movements. Caleb looked at me and had a confused look on his face, a confused face along with a face that was just about to laugh.

I hadn’t even gotten to speak to Cody between takes because he was super busy. Even when I tried to come up to him, he didn’t seem interested; I guess I could blame it on the fact that he was pre occupied with getting this video perfect. I really wished Alli had been here, but she has some modeling with Pastry that day, it would’ve been nice to have another girl to hang around with.
It was almost 7pm, and I was getting pretty tired from doing almost nothing.
“Last scene, ladies and gents!” Marcus, the director said to us. Relief. I was so glad to hear that. This meant that we got to go to my favorite set. The “prom” scene, is what I referred to it to.
“Quiet on set, please!” Marcus announced.
“And… Action.”
Cody spun Lauren around like a princess in a fairytale story. Her dress frilled all around her, as the wind below her picked up, and the extras came in, dancing with their “dates” and I could see Cody lip syncing the words to his song and seeing Lauren smiling at him. The lights streaming from the ceiling gave it a romantic touch, and if I didn’t know I would’ve believed they were truly in love with each other.
“Okay, Cody, lean closer.” Marcus called out instructions, with Cody’s song playing in the background. Cody’s face went in closer to Lauren’s, his hand holding her face so delicately. She wrapped her hands around his neck as they ran up his head, and he held her closer. I felt a chill run down my spine, and for a second I could feel my eyes flittering.
“Perfect and lean in for the kiss,” Marcus said calmly
The world went slow, all of a sudden. My knees weak. I could feel everything’s pace slow down, and then I could see just me, watching them, no hesitation, lunge at each other. Their lips slowly reached and I could feel my heart, unlike everything else, drop quickly. He didn’t hesitate, so I knew that he knew he would have to do this. Why didn’t he tell me? I thought. Mixed feelings. That’s all that I feel now, I don’t know what to think anymore. I don’t know what to say, but I find myself reaching out for Caleb. I wasn’t even sure what I was feeling.
“Are you alright?” Caleb asked quietly, he sounded confused. He probably wondered why I looked like I was about to faint. I nodded.
I wasn’t alright. I was… confused. Why hadn’t he told me about the kiss? I brushed back the hair from my face and picked up my jaw. Another chill ran through me. Take a deep breath, Abigail. Stop this, you’re being so weak. I spoke to myself.

“Aw, looks like you’re about to break down, Abigail.” I heard a voice say from beside me. It wasn’t a comforting voice. It gave me prick against my skin.

How the hell does she happened to be everywhere I am?

Should I let him? Would it be wrong if I stopped him? What did this actually mean? I wasn’t even sure, anymore. His arm around my waist brought me in closer. What am I doing? I can’t let him do this. No, he doesn’t like me like that. No, we’re just friends. I should stop him. But, for some reason I hadn’t.
He stopped in front of my face and inched back. He looked at me, my face worried, but I tried to wash it out. I bit my lip tightly.
He laughed lightly as I he let go of his grip around my waist. He laughed as he shook his head. His smile eventually made me smile.
Relief.
“You didn’t really catch on, did you?” he eventually spoke.
“Catch on to what?” I asked confused, still smiling.
“Did you really think I was that good of an actor?” Cody asked.
“I suppose.” I kept the smile on my face, along with the confused look. I bit my lip again.
He shook his head and chuckled again.
“Abigail. Do I have to spell it out for you?”
“It would help…” I said, more on the line of clueless. That’s exactly what I sounded like. Clueless and confused.
“Abigail. I like you, alright?”
I sat there shocked. It wasn’t the height; the fact that I was stories high up a building with nothing to catch my fall if I fell. It wasn’t that it was night in New York and we were somewhere I didn’t even know. It wasn’t because of any of those. Just that phrase he said; the way he said it. The way it was so genuine. The way that it didn’t even sound right.
I looked at him. Maybe he was kidding.
But no, no he wasn’t. He was being honest. I gulped before I could answer him. I turned my toes, as if I could reach the ground. Take a deep breath, Abigail.
I shook my head.
“How could you even… Me? Are you…. Sure?”  How stupid did that sound? Are you sure? I mocked myself in my head.
He laughed at my reaction, “Yes, Abs. I’m sure.”
My lip quivered before I spoke. How do you respond to that? I didn’t think of it like that. I didn’t think that maybe, through all this, he would like me? Of all people in this world… me? Abigail Harrison.
“Hey, if you don’t like me. It’s fine to say it, Abigail. I’m a big boy, I can try to keep my feelings for you on the inside, you know.” It was meant to sound like a joke, but I still couldn’t find the air to laugh.
Did I like him? I wasn’t even sure. I never thought about it. I thought about it, now, though. I was forced to. This was a good place to talk about it, I gave him that one. It was out of anywhere anyone could hear us- and this was exactly what I described when I told him I use to sit at the top of my condo and think. It was nice to know he really did listen when I spoke.
“I’m going to be honest with you, Cody…” he stared at me, his smirk made me smile. He waited for a response. My hand slid against my other hand as I spoke. I looked away from him to recollect my thoughts.
“I don’t… know.” I sighed. He looked at me, as if it weren’t a real answer, as if he were waiting for an answer even though I had already spoken.
“It’s just… I thought it was all, you know, an… act. I thought that when you did all that stuff it was because it was good for you… for our sake, I mean. I didn’t know that anything that happened was…real.” I struggled to find the right words. I moved my hair from my face and got a direct view of him.
I do know that when he held my hand, there was a different feeling. I know that when he kissed my forehead at the airport, that feeling was the same. Maybe it was butterflies, I wasn’t sure. Was I falling for him and hadn’t even known? But, if I had to think about it, then of course I didn’t know, right? Maybe this was me trying to convince myself, which was worse. Maybe I should just stop thinking so much. Maybe I should do things out of drive; I should do things because I want to, not because I had to think about it.
That’s what I should do.
Stop thinking, Abigail.
Just do it.
The first instinct your heart says you should do. Your head is getting in your way. Your head is telling you to stop.
Listen to your heart.
That’s cheesy.
But… just do it.
I tried to coach myself in my head.
Okay, I will.
I’ll do it.
I looked at him for a second, in the eyes. The sparkle of the color I still hadn’t known, even though I always get to chance to look at them.
It felt like an adrenaline rush.
My hands rested around his neck as they grabbed around him.

Just do it.

Our lips clashed. It was different than a little hand holding or a long hug. This was a lot different. So much different. It didn’t feel wrong. It was right. It was real. I felt his lips slip away, and I didn’t think about it. I was being greedy, but who cared? I went in for another kiss. Warm. Even more than I thought it could be. I could feel myself smiling as my hands glided behind his neck. I was being too greedy, now. Time to let go. So, I did.

I let out a sigh of relief. Glad. I was really glad.

—

I lay down in my bed quietly, afraid that Madison was already asleep. It had been a long day, and I didn’t want to wake her.
She turned in her bed. I stopped.
“Abs?” she asked as she rubbed her eyes.
“Yeah, sorry. Did I wake you?”
“Not really.” She laughed as she sat up. She seemed to be examining me. It would’ve been uncomfortable if it was anyone else, but I knew Madison. This wasn’t odd for her.
“… What?” she asked me.
“Huh?” I responded back.
“Why are you so smiley and happy and stuff?”
“No reason,” I tried to hide a smile.
“That’s not a ‘no reason’ smile. SPILL. IT.” she said as she crossed her arms as she sat with her legs crossed on her bed.
I had rambled on to her about what happened. I decided not to leave out any details, because I knew if she found out something later on, she’d be pretty upset if I hadn’t told her earlier. She was being quiet for the whole thing, soaking it in. But, I did notice that she looked as if she was listening to her mother read her a bedtime story, and it could possibly sound like that with the way I explained it to her.

“Does this mean you both are…?” she rose her eyebrows.
I laughed.
“It was just a kiss, Madison.”  I laughed, again.
I wasn’t exactly sure what that kiss meant. I mean, I knew that some part of me liked it. Some part of me wanted more, that’s for sure. Some part of me knew it was right. Some part of me didn’t resist it. But, what were we exactly? Were we still faking it? Was this still even an act?
“I don’t care. To me, that means you’re together. I knew it! I knew it! Cody and Abigail, sitting in a tree. K-I-S-S-I-N-G!” she went on to sing.
“Oh, please stop.” I pleaded her.
“I wish I could see you guys tomorrow at that video shoot. You’ll just be so cutesy. Oh my goodness!” Madison laughed, she seemed as if she were day dreaming.
I thought it would be a good idea to update Kailee on this whole thing. I looked at the clock. It didn’t matter that it was almost 12AM in New York, because that meant it was 9:00PM in L.A. I took a moment of realization and noticed that I hadn’t spoken to Kailee for so long. Like a real conversation when it was just us, and we were hanging out together. But, I know that she’d need to know something like this.
“Kailee!” I screamed into the phone. Till now, I was still smiling.
“Abigail?” she sounded confused.
“Yeah, Oh My God! Okay so-“
“Ha, thought you’d forgotten about my existence, now.” She said on the other line.
“Wait, what?”
“Never mind. What do you want?” she sounded irritable. Maybe it just wasn’t a good time for her. I stopped in before I spoke. I didn’t want to tell her something so exciting if she was going to be in such a bad mood. The smile was slowing swiping off my face.
“Hey, if you’re not in a good mood, just tell me so. I can call you later,” I tried saying calmly.
“Pft.” She began laughing on the other side. Not a joking laugh, more like she thought I was being pathetic.
She hung up the phone.
I just shook my head as I looked down.
This was one of my best friends. One of the first people who cared about me in Los Angeles, one person that I felt like was suddenly betraying me. It made me feel cold. I took a deep breath. This was supposed to be a good day. It was supposed to be a good phone call. I was supposed to go to bed with my head in the clouds.
But, this was the opposite. This was a nightmare. How could she even talk to me like that? She never did. She never acted that way. I never, ever had to criticize her for the things she said or did, because she was usually right about things. She wasn’t right about this. She wasn’t right about the she was acting. I wanted to confront her, but I had no pride after she hung up on me, mid-conversation.
She made me feel pathetic.
A feeling that never really goes away.

“What’s wrong?” Madison looked at my face.
I bit my lip so that I wouldn’t anything that I would regret come out. One minute I was smiling and this time, I was almost so frustrated to the verge of tears. Deep breaths, they always helped.
I closed my eyes to straighten everything out. Tuning out the world by not seeing any of it. I pulled the covers over my head and I could feel Madison coming to comfort me as she gently stroked my arm. I closed my eyes and there I saw Cody, we were back on the roof, but behind him I saw Kailee. Her arms were crossed around her chest and she was just shaking her head. What had I done? What was so wrong that she had to act that way? Madison and Alli appeared beside Cody, blocking out Kailee from sight. Brooklyn tapped me on the shoulder and there she was, just standing above me- towering me. My breathing stopped. I gasped quickly for air, but none of it came. I held my breath. She pulled me up with her hands, her fake nails jabbing into my skin. I didn’t have the ability of speech. If I opened my mouth, I would need to breathe, but I couldn’t. She pushed me off the roof and I looked up above me to see Cody, Madison and Alli just staring. No expression. And before I knew it, they were gone. My lungs were burning, they needed air. I passed the windows of the building slowly, but it was getting quicker passed every story. This is what freefalling feels like. I was nearing death. I had to enjoy this moment. I felt a tear pass my eyes as it disappeared in the sky. I opened my arms, I wonder if this was technically suicide? The world started spinning, or maybe it was just me. Maybe I was spinning. I was spinning for much too long. I began nearing the ground. I could hear the loud rush of wind through my ears. I heared the honking of cars and the speech of people. I saw the sun coming out from the buildings.
Free falling.
I’m about to die.
Dying isn’t as bad as it seems.
I hope it’s peaceful.
I fell into someone’s arms. They were light, as if I fell into a cloud. I began to breathe. They set me down and when I looked for them- they were gone.

That’s when I woke up.

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“Thanks for inviting us!” Olivia said to Cody one last time.
“No problem, it was a pleasure.” Cody said. I smiled.
Steven and Riley thanked Cody and I both.
“We’ll see you Monday,” Cassidy added.
Caleb came up to hug me.
“Tomorrow, okay?” I asked him. I could tell by his light hug he wasn’t sure of it, yet.
“I’ll text you.” He said. I closed my eyes for a couple seconds and turned around. I really hadn’t wanted to see them leave, even if it meant I would see them tomorrow.
Cody slowly took my hand as he led me in through the back door of the venue. I took a deep breath in, again. Turn on the girlfriend mode, Abigail. I said to myself.
I could tell by the way he held my hand that he was hesitant and unsure, I gripped tighter to show that it was fine. I really hoped Caleb hadn’t looked back.
“Matt said he wants to see us,” Cody said as we walked backstage passed a lot of the crew members who had been congratulating Cody on his performance.
I nodded, I knew that even if I spoke, he’d barely hear it passed all the people going up to talk to him. He quickly guided me through the people to a door labeled ‘EXIT’.
Photographers snapping away the minute we walked out. Our hands slipped away but I still followed right behind him. This was the back exit, I figured. He thought it would be smart, but paparazzi knew where to be. Or, maybe this was Cody’s plan all along- perfect for the act, now that I think of it. His mouth let out a small smile, but I could tell it was of displeasure, I know he hadn’t really wanted it to work out this way.
A security guard had been at one of the doors around the other wall of the venue.
He took a quick look at Cody and gave him a little head nod and opened the door for him. The paparazzi still flashing their cameras at us, it was so distracting, but seeing as Cody didn’t even notice it, he must’ve adjusted. The security guard stopped me and shook his head.
“Wait, no…I-“ I said. He must’ve thought I was some kind of obsessed fan following him.
“Patrick, Patrick. This is Abigail,” Cody said as he pulled out his hand for mine.
“Oh. I’m so sorry Ms. Harrison.” The security guard apologized to me.
I flashed him a light smile. I wasn’t sure how he had known who I was, but I didn’t bother questioning much because everything was coming at me so quickly.
“That was technically supposed to be a shortcut.” Cody said. I laughed.
We walked over to Matt who I saw passed a curtain backstage. Cody held my hand so that he wouldn’t need to explain to any of the guards, even though I already had a pass which he probably neglected to notice.
“Matt,” Cody said as they exchanged a quick handshake. I chuckled to myself. Matt fixed his glasses and walked in front of Cody as he leaded us somewhere else.

-

“This is good.” Matt said as he held up two magazines that had pictures of Cody and I from Disneyland. He kept nodding at the pictures proudly; probably proud of us for actually keeping up with the act. Maybe he didn’t think I’d be totally up for it after my hesitation to answer before.
Cody nodded. He didn’t look satisfied, though.
“So, what’s this all about?” I finally asked.
“You guys are doing fine keeping up the act,” I flinched. Act. It was such a terrible thing we were doing and yet, he made it seem like it was no big deal.
“Disneyland was a good choice, props to whoever chose that whole thing.” Matt said.
Cody jokingly looked at me. I put a small smile on my face to show my liking.
“Do you think you can keep it up for the next… 2 months, though?” Matt asked.
Throughout the tour, how could we even try to keep it up? None of the paparazzi could see phone conversations. No one would even know if we talked to each other hours on end. How could we pretend? So I had to ask.
“How are we going to pretend to do anything while we’re states apart?” I asked.
“Good question. That’s what I wanted to talk to you about. How would you feel if you went on tour with us?” Matt finished.
On tour? With them? Just to keep up a stupid act? This was getting ridiculous. I’m sure we could take 2 months off from each other, what would happen if we didn’t? It didn’t make sense to me, at all. I faced the facts that even if I had wanted to go, my mom would never let me; even if it was to save my life. She wouldn’t let me go on a road trip with a family she hasn’t even met yet, let alone a tour. Eventually, I’d have to leave for school in September.
I shook my head slowly.
“My mom almost didn’t even let me come to New York, there isn’t a chance she’d let me on the road with y’all.” I said to them.
“This is what I feared. I’ll have to work something out.”
“You’re coming tomorrow, right Abigail?” Matt asked.
“Coming to…”
“The video shoot.” Cody completed.
I’m sure Cody had spoken about it but I hadn’t even listened. I probably just nodded as he spoke to me, I hadn’t been very attentive with him on the phone.
“Oh, right. Yeah. What time was that, again?”
“6AM tomorrow.” Matt said as he checked his schedule on his phone.
My eyes widened. Six… like in the morning? This would be a hard morning.
“I’m gonna go check up on some things, talk to you both later.” Matt said as he dismissed himself.
“I wanna take you somewhere.” Cody said to me out the door and we walked down the street. I looked at him confused.
“It’ll only take a couple minutes.” He assured me. He put his arm on my shoulder and I leaned in to put my arm around his waist. If he had seen paparazzi, he was doing it right. I was surprised at his automatic movements, it seemed like he just sensed the right times for them.  I took my other arm and latched it with his hand around my shoulder. I caught myself smiling. I was excited to see where we were going to go.

We walked up the side of a buildings fire escape. Higher and higher up rusty steps that were creaking below every step we took.
“Where are you taking me?” I laughed.
“Just follow me,” he said as he looked back at me smiling. I laughed, again. I pierced my lips together, I could feel the excitement forming inside from me.
“Wait, you have to close your eyes.” Cody said.
“Cody, do you want me to fall of this building… or?” he laughed. He crouched down in front of me. I stared at him confused for a second.
“What are you waiting for, get on my back.” He laughed.
“Are you-“
“I’m not weak, Abs. Go ahead.”
I quickly got behind him as he piggy backed me up the fire escape.
“Are you eyes covered?” he asked.
“Yes.” I said as I closed them.
“Okay, good.”
He gently let me off his back and my feet felt the ground. I winced even with my eyes closed.
He took my hand and I hesitated more than I should have. He guided me as I carefully walked a few steps.
“Now, open them.” He instructed.
I opened my eyes and saw the city lights glowing below me. It felt like we were on a cloud, just watching everyone. No one could see us, but we could see them.
“I now this isn’t your special place, but I figured that I wanted to get close enough to your view of your home city.” Cody said looking at me and then out to the view.
“It’s beautiful. I…just… Thank you.” I said as I moved closer to the edge of the roof. It was normal to me, the height, even the look of the fall.
“Careful…” Cody warned me as he quietly clutched on my arm.
I pulled him along with me to the side of the roof. I sat on the edge as I let go of his hand. Cody, at first, was a little hesitant. I sat there and waited for him to sit down beside me, when I noticed he hadn’t I looked up at him.
“Come sit with me.” I offered.
He sat right on the edge of the roof beside me. We sat there for a while. He took his hand and moved it to the side of my waist as he held me tightly beside him. It startled me, because we hadn’t needed to act, no one could see us. But, I didn’t move away, that would be rude.
“Isn’t it amazing?” I said gazing out to the city. He nodded. I smiled at his agreement.
“Abigail,” Cody began seriously.
“Yeah?” I said to him.
“I’m just… gonna get this out here to you…” he said slowly. My heart began pounding past my chest and I felt like the ground was way farther than it already was, I twisted my foot as I reached for the ground. Obviously, it wasn’t there. The ground was stories below me, but I wanted to be sturdy for that one second.
“I…” he paused again and gulped.
“I’m glad you’re here.”
“Me too.”
“I mean… I’m glad you’re here… with me.” He said slowly, “I’m glad I’m with you.”
I looked at him a little confused. Maybe more than just a little confused. I turned my body to look directly at him.
I wasn’t sure of what was happening at this moment, I wasn’t even sure what he really meant.
I laughed. I laughed in awkward situations. I guess that just made it more awkward.
“Here’s what I’m trying to say,” he paused.
“We go around having to pretend like we’re dating, even though the rest of the world doesn’t know that we really aren’t, but to be honest with you…” he waited.
“I don’t want to pretend. As stupid as I made that sound,” he said quietly. As if anyone could hear us all the way up from here.
I wasn’t sure what he was expressing. Did he want to stop all of this faking? Did he want to forget all about it and just be normal friends?
“Abs,” he pulled me in closer. His face came in closer to mine. I wasn’t use to him calling me ‘Abs’. I took a deep breath. I was wrong. I was completely wrong. He wasn’t acting anymore. He was doing this all out of reason. He didn’t have to do this because there was no paparazzi around, at all. He was doing this out of impulse. I watched him come closer.
“Hold still, alright?” he asked as he inched in closer. I nodded once.

Closer.

Closer.

Closer.

But, this was just supposed to be an act. This wasn’t supposed to be real. We were supposed to forget each other when we weren’t in sight of each other. Out of sight, out of mind, right? But all of a sudden it felt different.

He inched in closer.

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“You.” He said softly. “and…” he continued.
And what?! AND WHAT?! I thought to myself impatiently. I hated how calm and slow he was being. But, I guess I hadn’t adjusted to him, because he was usually always like that.
“Actually…” he paused again.
“Caleb. Don’t you dare do that, you know much I hate that.”
“What?”
“When you go ‘oh never mind.’” I imitated in a low voice that had been poorly matching his.
“I didn’t say ‘never mind,’ now, did I?” he asked slyly
“Oh, shut up.” I said as I pushed him against his arm. He barely budged.
He stared at me for a second. Our eyes met and quickly he turned away, laughed and shook his head.
“Cody Simpson, huh?” he asked.
Would it be wrong to lie to Caleb? Caleb; the one person I always confided in. The one who trusted me with everything and yet, I sometimes felt as if I didn’t know enough.
“We’re just friends,” I softly defended. There was no use in debating with Caleb, he always came on top.
He laughed silently again as he scratched the back of his neck and hopped off the bed to lay on Madison’s hotel bed. I could hear the sheets wrinkling under him. He shook his head and he looked back at me.
“What?” I anxiously asked him.
“I never thought you’d be one of those girls, you know?” My eyebrows rose, I just looked at him confused.
“Moving out to L.A, having celebrity friends, and rumored to be dating them.” He said. He was so gentle with his words. I could see he was watching what he was saying or maybe he didn’t really have to.
“Big girl, now. I see.” He laughed. I pierced my lips to hold in the truth. I couldn’t tell him, not just yet. I couldn’t keep it from Caleb. I didn’t think it was fair. I trusted him. I could tell him.
My phone rang in one of the bags by the door. I sighed as I struggled to get out of my warm hotel bed. This wasn’t the time to tell him.
“Here, let me get it.” Caleb said, already up and halfway to my bags.
“It’s on the outside pocket of my purse.” I instructed.
“Here,” he tossed my phone by the bed.
“Hello?” I answered
“Hey, Abs.” a common voiced responded on the other line. This was different, though. I wasn’t use to this voice calling me “Abs” it was a lot different hearing it.
“Cody?” I asked unsure. Laughter on the other side of the phone- definitely Cody’s laugh, I recognized it immediately.
“Wouldn’t it just be easier to have caller ID than to ask if it was me every single time.” He joked. He was right, though. Every time he spoke, it was kind of ridiculous to ask if it was him because there was no other Australian boy I knew except of course his dad and his brother, 2 people that I doubt would ever really need to call me in their life time.
I looked at Caleb for a second who was looking at me and when he realized I had seen him staring for a while, he turned away and played with his thumbs.
“It would be,” I agreed.
I stood up from my bed because it was a little uncomfortable having to watch Caleb act awkward, which rarely ever happened between us.
“I should be in the city in about an hour, are you coming to the concert tonight?” he asked.
I hesitated. Honestly, I had forgotten all about the concert. I was way too excited about seeing my friends. It would be too much to ask him of bringing all these people to a concert, it just wouldn’t be fair. Not, at all.
“Oh my goodness! I’m so sorry. I completely forgot… My friends came to hang out with me for-“
“Bring them, I don’t mind.” He said.
“I can’t ask that of you, I-“
“No, really. Abs, I don’t mind. How many people do I reserve under your name?” he asked.
“Cody, really you don’t need-“
“I’m inviting them as my guests, Abigail. Just agree.” I just laughed. I don’t think there was any chance of me winning against him, so I gave in.

“How do you feel about a Cody Simpson concert tonight?” I asked as I looked at Caleb who was still playing with his fingers.
He just shrugged.
“Sure, we’re all here just to be with you, anyways.” he responded frankly.
“I kinda like this whole new, partially famous Abigail. An hour with you and I’m already getting things out of it.”  
“You jerk.” I kidded as I threw a pillow at him which didn’t even skim him.
I paid close attention to the way he moved. I could tell that he really was being honest when he said that they were all here just to be with me- it made me feel guilty for dragging them to this concert; more importantly because they didn’t know I was kind of obligated to go simply for an act.
“I-“ he quickly corrected himself, “We. We really missed you, Abs.” 
There was something about the way Caleb said it; the way it came out almost out of thin air, kind of like it was an impulse. But, I didn’t want to question it, I wanted to enjoy the fact that I was back in New York, my home, with my friends.

I missed them all, but I knew he was waiting for me to say it. In all honesty, I really did miss him. I really did want to see him face to face rather than through Skype or listening to his voice from a cell phone. Even though we hadn’t spoken very often, there was always something that held us together as friends.

“I missed you too.”

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“This is Cassidy, Olivia, Steven, Riley and Caleb.” I introduced them all to Alli.
She hugged them all and laughed lightly.
“I really hope you guys liked the show.” She said a little distracted.
“I’ll talk to y’all after the meet and greets, alright? I gotta do some things for Pastry.” She smiled as she waved to us all.
“She’s cute.” Steven murmured to Riley.
“I heard that, Steven.” I laughed. He shrugged and laughed.
Madison went off with Alli to do some signings as well.

I had noticed that the girls were in awe with everything around them. The noise drained out their voices and I could barely hear what they had been saying.
“Let’s go out to the M&G’s.” I suggested, “I want you all to meet Cody.” I smiled as Cassidy and Olivia hooked arms with mine as I leaded them with the boys behind us.
“Matt,” I said calmly as I noticed Matt standing by one of the lines.
“Yeah?” he asked, “Oh, Abigail!” he said as he turned around to look at me. He quickly scanned the faces behind me.
“Matt Graham,” I introduced to all of them.
“Nice to meet you all.” I could tell he was extremely busy.
“Take these,” he handed laminates to me. 6 of them in my hand.
“Just show them this and they’ll let you in backstage.” Matt said.
“Thank you.” I smiled at him.
“I need to speak to you after the show as well, alright?” he asked seriously.
“Sure.” I nodded.
I could see the faces of some of the girls around me. They seemed almost mad. Some of them just glared at us and smiled. It was uncomfortable to walk passed by so many of them up until the front where they just looked at our pass and let us walk on through. I heard Olivia and Cassidy talking about how much they enjoyed the whole show. Steven, Riley and Caleb all appeared to be flirting with a lot of girls, which was actually really smart of them because there were thousands of girls lined up waiting for Cody. I laughed at the thought of them trying to get a girls’ number.
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“You did amazing out there,” I said as I gave Cody a hug and I had felt myself almost rising on my tippy toes to reach around his neck.
“Thank you,” he said quietly as his arms wrapped around my waist tightly.
“These are my friends, Cassidy, Steven, Riley, Olivia and Caleb.” I introduced.
They all exchanged some “hello’s” and the girls took their opportunity with the hugs, seeing as I knew they were fans of Cody beforehand.
I noticed Caleb standing away from the group on his phone, obviously uninterested in any of this.
“What’s up?” I said as I walked towards him.
“Nothing,” he responded quickly.
“Liar.” He rolled his eyes. I think he was supposed to mean it as in a joke, but he hadn’t really shown it. It bothered me to see him hiding things from me. I guess it was fair, I didn’t tell him the complete truth and here he was not telling me. It’s not like he had known what was happening, and even if I told him, I’d know he’d think it was just a stupid idea.
He ignored my comment and went back to his phone. It was a long day, and I hadn’t blamed him for being so cranky, especially because he had to wake up early today just to pick me up from the airport.
“I’m gonna get going,” he said.
“Why?”
“Kinda tired.” I didn’t believe him, though. Even though he had every reason to be tired, I couldn’t take him honestly, because it wasn’t like him to bail out of something early.
“Abs!” Cassidy called for me,
“Caleb I-“
“Don’t worry about it, Abigail.” He said.
“Stay, Caleb.” I walked over toward him, he still wasn’t looking directly at me.

“Stay, stay for me. Stay… because I want you here.” I admitted.

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“We’ll be landing soon, please make sure your seated in your seats with your belt buckled…”
the flight attendant began.
I could feel my heart pumping out of my chest, almost pounding enough for me to hear it. Smiles pasted on my face, no need to force this one out- this was real. I was past excited. I was getting fidgety. I counted down the minutes. 9 more minutes. Just 9 more minutes and I would be in New York with my friends, enjoying myself. I would be in my own city, but most importantly my friends were going to be there. My friends that I knew since elementary school, the one’s I’ve fought with and yet, we still all remain friends.
I had realized at this moment that I was glad for the group of friends I had. Even having to leave some of my best friends back in NYC, they still remained my best friends- the distance would never tear us apart. Cheesy, but true.

We walked through the terminal into the airport, my laptop bag over my shoulder and my purse held in my other hand.
“I think baggage claim is over there,” Michelle pointed to our left. I looked up to see the sign that read “Luggage Claim”
I felt like I was rushing everyone, but I was so eager to just call my friends and tell them I was finally here.
“Hurry!” I yelled at Madison behind me, struggling as she tried to put on some lip gloss.
I ran down the escalator, trying to pass people without bumping into them left and right.
“It’s this way,” Madison’s mom pointed to our right.

I dropped everything right there in the middle of the airport. Madison and her mom came to a halt behind me.
“What?”
I couldn’t even focus. I blinked my eyes quickly.
“CASSIDY!” I screamed. A few people behind her turned around.
“ABIGAIL!” The rest of them screamed.
We all had run and clashed together into one big group hug. I could feel myself sobbing and laughing at the same time. We all let go after a few seconds of almost tipping over. I was back in my element and I was glad. New York was honestly where I belonged.
Coming apart I realized there was my best friend, Cassidy along with Olivia, Deandra, Yasmin, Caleb, Riley and Steven.
“Are you crying?” Steven asked, jokingly.
“California made you soft,” Riley added.
“Stop it, I missed you guys.” I laughed as I rubbed the mascara from the bottom of my eye that probably made me look like a raccoon.
Madison coughed.
“Ahem?” Madison got my attention.
“Guys, this is Madison, one of my closest friends.” I smiled as I introduced her.
“Madison, this is Cassidy, Olivia, Deandra, Yasmin, Caleb, Riley and Steven.” I introduced them all one by one.
“Pleased to meet you all.” She said.
“This is Madison’s mom.” I laughed as I cued Michelle in. She just nodded and smiled.
“Well, let’s hurry and get your stuff!” Olivia said as she hurried us along. She always took charge, that didn’t change. I walked behind all of them, as they got acquainted with Madison. Caleb walked beside me and took my laptop bag across his shoulder.
“Pink is totally your color,” I teased. He laughed his calming laugh. I laughed along with him. He was just that one person that I could be with, no talking, nothing, and it wouldn’t be awkward at all. We would just sit there, and I suppose, enjoy each other’s presence. For us, it seemed like I never really needed to talk, but even when I did, he always listened. That was good about us. I gazed at him for a second, his light brown hair cut short- he looked different, actually. Something about him, besides the hair, was different. It may have been the way he was standing, kind of protective, actually; marching like a soldier.
Olivia, Deandra, Yasmin, Riley, and Steven eventually came to me to talk to me. They acted as if I hadn’t even left; like they had just seen me the other day. I liked it this way. I didn’t want so much attention on me, because that’s when awkward moments happen, and me, being awkward…. That just makes everything more awkward. It was nice to feel them there, like their presence gave off a different vibe from when I was in Los Angeles. It felt like home.
I jokingly interlocked my arms around Caleb’s, when I realized his arms were buffer and tighter than before. My hands wrapped around his arm and I lightly gripped around him.
“Been working out, I see.” I said as I poked him at his arms.
“Just a tad.” He laughed. He was being modest, because now I had noticed that it wasn’t his posture that made him look different, it was his structure. His weak arms looked strong, his cute features were more masculine, I noticed the height difference between us was a lot more than before as I looked up to his face. He was a whole different person, but even when I saw him at a glance, I hadn’t noticed a change. It was until I looked at him, really looked at him. He was… handsome.
Riley and Steven came and ran in between us, unlocking our arms.
“So,” Riley said as he put his arm around me.
“Sooo,” Steven mocked Riley. They were the same old goofs.
“Since when were you going to tell us you were dating this guy… what’s his name?”
“Huh?”
“Cody Simpson. Isn’t that his name?”
“Wait, huh?” I looked at them, again. How could they possibly know?
“We saw you on the magazine rack at the mall the other day.” Steven said to me.
Now, I couldn’t tell them I was acting. I couldn’t tell them it was all just a lie, because I know that if I tell one person, everyone else would know. But, they were my friends, I should be able to trust them, right? I thought about it for a second.
You tell one person and soon the whole world knows. I couldn’t screw it up for Cody, again. I just couldn’t.
“Already too cool for us, huh, Abs?” Caleb said as he walked in front of us, backwards.
I rolled my eyes at them. I knew they wouldn’t tell anyone, but just in case, just in the slight chance it may have slipped out, I couldn’t tell them. It wouldn’t be good to tell anyone, actually. My family and the people involved with it should be the only ones to know. I know I sound a little shallow, and don’t take me wrong, I trust them all with the life of me, but this wasn’t my secret to tell, it was Cody’s and what I’ve learned after 15 years of life is that secrets quickly get told and quickly get twisted. I wouldn’t screw it up for him.
“We’re just friends.” I smiled. I was being honest, I wasn’t lying. I can’t feel bad for not lying, that’s not logical.
I saw Caleb let out a laugh, a small; one chuckle laugh. He wasn’t convinced, I could see it in his expression.
“So, how ‘bout you boys?” I asked as we waited for the elevator to come down.
Riley swung his hands down from my shoulders.
“Well, Steven over here…” Riley winked.
“No, no…”  Steven whispered.
“What?” I wondered
“He-“ Riley got cut off by Steven who covered his mouth.
“He’s planning on asking out Yasmin tonight,” Caleb finished, quietly.
“AWWW-“ Steven covered my mouth along with Riley’s.
Madison and her mom, Cassidy, Olivia, Deeandra and Yasmin all caught up behind us.

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I placed my things down and collapsed on the bed. For that brief moment, I did forget the rest of the people who were with me. Madison collapsed on the other bed as the rest of them filed into the room and sat where there was space. I almost envied Madison’s mom for having her own room at that moment. Deeandra and Yasmin both had to leave after the airport because both their parents had family parties that they needed to attend, but they’d see me again while I was there.
“Where do you want me to put this?” Caleb said as he took my pink laptop bag from his shoulder down. The way he didn’t even seem to mind he had been carrying a pink laptop bag made me giggle to myself.
“Over there somewhere, I don’t really care.” I said as I pointed behind him.
He placed the laptop down beside one of the walls.
“We should totally check out what things this hotel has.” Madison suggested. I was glad she didn’t mind all my friends being there, she, unlike myself, was not awkward. She definitely knew how to work a group.
Everyone agreed, except me, of course. I was super tired and all I really wanted to do was rest.
“Aw, c’mon Abs!” I heard some of them say.
“I’ll meet up with you guys in a bit, just give my legs some time to recharge.” I laughed.
“I’ll stay,” Caleb said as he jumped to sit at the other end of the bed.
Everyone else left out the door.
“You don’t have to stay, Caleb.” I said to him.
“I need to talk to you,” He responded.
“About what?”
When someone says they want to talk to you, that’s different; that’s by choice, they want to do something, just because. There’s a difference between want and need. He specifically said need, and this is when my heart started to race. He needed to talk to me. Need. It was such a small word, but, yet, I could imagine all the things he’d be talking to me about. I quickly skimmed through my mind everything I did when I talked to him last, which was a while ago, now that I think of it.

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I watched Madison carefully fold her clothes into her large suitcase.
“How ‘bout this one?” she asked as she held up a shirt from her closet.
“Madison, I love your whole closet it’s going to be hard to say no to anything, really.” I tried to let out a laugh.
Madison let out a sign in return.
“There’s still two days. That’s 48 hours of her being able to change her mind.” She tried to say encouragingly.
It wasn’t working.
I don’t think my mom knew how badly I wanted to go back home. Don’t get me wrong, I love L.A, I love the friends I’ve made here, but, I wanted to see my old friends. I wanted to be able to laugh around with my old friends like I was able to before. I never got a say in moving out to L.A, I didn’t object to it but I hadn’t agreed either. After living in Cali, many people would think that I would never want to go back to New York- wrong. New York was my home. New York was the centre of almost everything I had, almost everyone I knew and almost everyone who knew me lived there.
I sighed quietly to myself.
“Hey, Alli wants to Skype.” She said as she was clicking away on her laptop.
“Madison!” the computer screamed. I recognized Alli’s voice. I turned around and went in front of the computer.
“Abigail!” she screamed just as loud. Madison lowered down the volume.
“Any louder?” Madison joked.
“I cannot wait until you we all meet in New York!” she said excitedly. I could see Alli’s computer slightly bouncing up and down. She was definitely riding the tour bus right now.
Madison looked at me worried.
“What… what’s up?” Alli noticed the upset look on my face.
“Abs can’t technically go… yet.” She said as she bit her lip.
I sighed, again.
“Hey… Abs. Don’t worry about it, there will be plenty of other occasions to go to New York…” she said comfortingly.
I smiled in courtesy.
“Hey, Alli. Who are you talking to?” I heard Cody’s voice in the background.
“Yeah, Alli. Who is it?” I heard a tiny, squeakier voice ask. Tommy, most likely.
“It’s Madison and Abs, do y’all want to say hi?” she said as she looked to her left.
“Hi Abigial! Hi Madison! Look, I bought a stuffed shark!” Tom said as he pretended as if the shark was eating at the computer.
“Okay, thanks Tommy.” Alli said as she shooed him away, playfully.
“Yeah,” she said and she nodded to someone behind the computer.
I just laid my hand below my chin and played with the earring dangling from my ear.
Madison turned the computer so that Alli could still see her, she could still see Alli, and so that she could continue packing.
“I love your jeans! Are they new?” Alli asked as she pulled some of her hair passed her face and took a sip from her water bottle.
“These are the ones we got that day we got my dress, remember?” Madison said as she tugged at the jeans on her.
“Oh, right. I remember.” She laughed at her forgetfulness. I laughed silently along with her.
They went off to talk about New York and I tried draining them out. There was nothing I wanted to be aware of less than the fact that I wouldn’t be going to New York with Madison. I really hated to be such a downer, especially around such a positive pair or people. Madison and Alli were always happy-go-lucky and peppy, being around them and being so negative just wasn’t fair for them. I didn’t want to bring down their mood, not that I’m sure I could.
“Hey, Abs. Your phone’s vibrating.” Madison said as she slid my phone across the bed.
“Hello?” I answered.
“Hey there.” I heard almost an echo from the computer.
“Cody?” I guessed. He began laughing. I walked to where the computer was to see their Skype.
Cody hung up the phone when he saw me.
“You were right.” Alli said as she looked at Cody.
“Huh?” I asked as I sat down on the floor beside Madison.
“We were thinking of a way to get you in the Skype.” Alli laughed.
“Maybe just asking?” I suggested.
They began laughing, again.
My phone began ringing in my hand, again.
“Hi, Cody. May I help you?” I said through Skype as I looked at my phone.
He just laughed.
“Answer it, will you?” he laughed as he placed his phone by his ear.
“Hello? Who’s this?” I joked as I answered. I walked out into the hallway.
“We were planning this whole thing for you to come to New York, and now all of a sudden you can’t come?” he said on the other line. I could tell it was a joke but at the same time I could tell he meant what he said.
“My mom doesn’t want to compromise.” I responded.
“It might be a tad hard not to see you for the next 2 months.”
“Oh, I’m so sure.” I laughed. He chuckled lightly.
“This is where you’d say you’d miss me, too.”
“But… you didn’t say you missed me, now did you?” I laughed.
“I was trying to get it out of you first, c’mon.” he joked.
For a quick second, I had a genuine laugh. He hadn’t failed to make me happy for that second.
“Well, I’d be lying if I said I wouldn’t miss you.” He finished.
“You tease.” I laughed another real laugh. He laughed with me. My smile stretched- a real smile. I pierced my lips together and switched the phone to the other ear.
This boy was such a tease. I laughed at the thought.
“You’re really good at this acting thing. You should take a career in it.” I said it as a joke, but it was in all honesty. I was terrible at trying to pretend I was in a relationship with him, even off camera he was good at it, and I still hadn’t changed- I was the same old awkward girl.

“Hey, Madison! Abigail! Can you both come down for a second?”
“Sure thing, Liz!” I said as Madison’s mom called for us from downstairs.
“Madison, your mom is calling for us.” I said.
She hurried out the door.
“I’ll talk to you later, okay?” I said into the phone.
“Sure thing. I’ll Skype you later.” He said. I hung up the phone.
Almost a sigh of relief. It had been the first time I had talked to him in weeks. I didn’t want to bother him after his shows because I knew he’d be super tired, but I hadn’t known if he’d ever had enough rest for me to call him, just to check up on him and Alli. I mean, they were my friends, after all.
“What do you think she needs?” Madison asked confused.
“I don’t know.” I said as I followed her down the stairs.
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“Mom, what are you doing here…?” I asked confused.
“How ‘bout you both sit down first.” Michelle suggested.
Madison and I stared at each other, we both hadn’t known what was going on.
“We decided…” My mom looked at Michelle as she paused, “I’m going to allow you to go on this trip with Michelle and Madison.” My mom said to us, but it was directed to me. My jaw hung open.
“Are you serious, Liz?!” Madison asked excited.
“Yes,” Madison looked towards her mom, almost as if she was proud.
I wasn’t sure if I was dreaming, so just in case I pinched the skin by my wrist. It hurt.  I was definitely awake. This wasn’t a dream.
I quickly got up and gave my mom a big hug, and Madison came up behind me and joined in.
“Come in here, mom!” Madison said as she took her hand away from the group hug to gesture to her mom to come in the hug. She hadn’t resisted.
My eyes got blurry as I felt tears coming from my eyes. Happy tears. Really happy tears.
“Aw! Abs!” Madison said as she let go and hugged me. I laughed as I wiped the tears from my eyes.
“Better start packing.” My mom said calmly as she smiled at me.
What ever Michelle did to convince my mom worked. I was glad. My forced smile from before was no longer forced. It was automatic. If it was possible, it felt like my smile was leaping off my face in excitement.

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“We’re soon going to take flight, please leave your tray tables in their upright position…” the flight attendant said into the intercom. I tuned her out, pulled down the window and I shut my eyes and leaned it again the side of the window.
I had never been so grateful in my life. Leaving NYC and coming to LA never felt right. When I left last year, I was leaving everything I had and starting all over. A couple of my friends told me they would be waiting at the airport for me, and that got me extremely excited. I hadn’t seen them forever and I couldn’t wait to just be able to talk to them, face to face, without a computer screen or a telephone separating us all apart. Not to mention the 2,778 miles in between L.A and New York.
Our flight departed at 6AM, Pacific time, meaning, that would be 3AM in New York. It would be almost 12PM L.A time when we landed in New York, which is 9AM their time. Time differences were confusing.
“Abs,” Madison said quietly as she nudged me
“Yeah?” I asked with my eyes still closed.
“In 5 and half hours we’re going to be in New York. How does that make you feel?” she asked as she pretended to put a microphone to my face. I began laughing.
“Could you just imagine Cody being at the airport ready to kiss you, again.” She laughed. I had almost forgotten about that. It had been so long and I hadn’t talked to him since the day he left up until 2 nights ago. I remembered the feelings that rushed across my body when he kissed me on my forehead. Chills ran through my body remembering the feeling. Good chills.
“You make it sound like we were making out or something. Geez, Madison.” I rolled my eyes, jokingly. “It’s all an act, either way.”
“Are you kidding me?” Madison snapped, not angrily but, she seemed was shocked.
“Huh?”
“You really don’t- Wow. I…” she stopped mid sentence and laughed as she shook her head.
I didn’t know what to respond, so I didn’t. I laid my head against the window, again.

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“Abigail?” Madison snapped her fingers in front of my face.
“What?” I asked annoyed.
“Did you hear a single thing I said?” she asked.
“Wait, sorry… can you repeat it?”
I had noticed that I had been acting like this a lot. I had to ask people to repeat things over and over, because truth is, I was never focused on what anyone was saying, lately. It’s kind of as if my mind was completely out in the clouds but my body stayed around to take up space. For the past two weeks, my attention capacity was just so low and everyone seemed irritable with me; I would be, if I were them, as well. 
“Do you wanna hang out with Billy and Eric tonight?” she asked me. She had probably made a whole spiel about it before and lessened the words so that I wouldn’t zone out, again.
“Sure, I don’t really mind.” I answered as I fiddled around with my phone in my hand.
“Abs, can you put that down? I swear, I haven’t seen you without your phone for the past like… 2 weeks.” She observed.
“Sorry, I…” I didn’t bother to give an explanation, because truth is: I didn’t really have one. I left my phone on her bed as she explained to me what one of her new movies was as she explored her closet for something to wear.
“I kind of like this outfit, what do you think?” she said as she placed a cute outfit that consisted of jeans, a flowing top, a jean jacket and some cute light brown colored ankle boots in front of her.
“Yeah, it’s cute. Maybe, change the top to your white flowing top.” I suggested.
She went back into her closet to look for the shirt.
“So, how’s your mom been on you?”
“She hasn’t even let me explain anything to her, yet. It’s been long enough.”
“She will, eventually. Maybe we should go to your house before we meet with Billy and Eric tonight.”
“Yeah,” I agreed.
My mom still hadn’t gotten over the day I hadn’t answered my phone and hadn’t told her I was out with Cody the whole day. That, and I hadn’t informed before I left the house the day they left for the airport. In my defense, I was being considerate, because she was asleep and I didn’t assume she’d be awake by the time I came back, to be honest.
Either way, she only really let met hang out with Madison for the past couple days.

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“Hey, mom.” I yelled when I came into the door.
“I thought you were staying over at Madison’s?” she asked as she came out of the living room, and noticed Madison was with me.
“Hi Liz!” Madison greeted my mom.
“Hey Madison, we haven’t seen you here in a while.” My mom laughed.
“Been so busy!” Madison said, “So, we were just wondering…” Madison paused and took a look at me for a second. I nodded her to continue.
“Is it okay if we hang out with Billy and Eric tonight?” Madison politely asked. My mom never said “No” to Madison.
“Who’s Billy and Eric?” My mom looked to me, not towards Madison.
“They’re just friends, mom.” I answered irritated.
“Can I talk to you in your room, Abigail.” My mom asked, but it sounded more like a command.
“Madison can you just wait for us in the living room?” she asked her politely, soft voiced. 
Here comes a lecture, I thought to myself.

My mom closed my room door behind her. I fell on my bed, flat on my back. I didn’t really want to hear what she had to say.
“So, who are these boys, Abs?” she asked, I couldn’t specify if her voice was mad or calm. Kind of neutral, but a little more than that.
“Billy and Eric. They’re friends of Madison’s. I met them at her party.” I answered half honest.
“Are you in a relationship with one of these boys, Abigail?”
“Oh my god, mom! You think every damn guy I hang out with is automatically my boyfriend.” I was getting angry at this point. I never got upset like this with my mom. But, I was just so irritable with her for the past days that I guess everything decided to blow up at this moment.
“Watch your tone.” I rolled my eyes.
“How about that other boy, Abigail? How come all of a sudden you’re not telling me about these boys you hang out with?”
“Mom, you didn’t care before.” I responded, calmer this time.
“Well, you’re out with a boy until almost 11pm then you leave the house, without giving me notice, at 4:30 in the morning, Abigail! How else do you think I’ll react?”
“Can I say my side of the story, now?”
She tapped her toe as she crossed her arms against her chest.
“Go ahead.” She said, but she didn’t sound willing to listen.
I explained to her what had happened. I explained that I did sleep over at their house, which she hadn’t known. I did hang out with them a couple times, which I hadn’t told her about. I guess that was wrong on my part, but her not allowing me to hang out with me people without proper understanding of the whole problem was another thing.
“So, basically. Now, after this whole big thing, I have to pretend I’m dating him, even though we’re not, but no one knows that, and everyone has to think we’re dating without us actually saying we’re dating, and… yeah, that’s it.” I finished my whole speech.
My mom stood there, unimpressed.
Grounded, I assumed. 2 weeks. She’s going to take my phone. I should’ve left it at Madison’s house. What if she takes away my laptop? Then I can’t even go out. I don’t even-
“Okay.” She responded calmly.
Okay… what did that mean?
“I don’t…”
“You’re free to go out with those boys tonight. I allow you to ‘pretend’ to date this boy, but I should remind you that what you’re doing is both wrong and noble at the same time…” she started.
Why was she being so nice? I guess depending on how you looked at it, but I was surprised she was even letting me go, at all.
“Before you go out with those boys tonight, I just want to meet them. That’s all I ask. And, with Cody, I want to meet him… and his parents. His whole family. I want to talk to his manager about all of this. It should’ve gone through me first, you’re not an adult, yet Abigail, you don’t-“
“I know, mom. Okay. They won’t be back for another like 2 and half months, so you’re going to have to wait.”
“You really have to stop growing up, Abs.” she joked.
This was better, this was the normal mom I knew.

—-

“I knew it.” I said to Madison as we walked into my house.
“Knew what?”
“I knew you liked Eric.” I teased, she paused and took a small gasp. It was extremely obvious while we were hanging out with them today. She couldn’t keep her gaze off of him, and her laughs never ceased. Eric, too.
“I do n-“ I stopped her. “He likes you, too.”
“How do you know?” she demanded.
“Trust me, he likes you.” I said as I kicked my combat boots off and fixed them into the closet.
I could see her trying to hide herself from blushing. Pessimistic
“Oh, I have a surprise for you!” she said as she made me follow behind her up to my room.
“What is it?”
“Just come!” she said already half way up the stairs.
I followed behind her quickly.
She was digging through her sleeping stuff that she brought over.
“Here, open this.” She said as she tossed me an envelope.
“Don’t ask, just open.” She said before I could even say a word.
I took the flap of the envelope and pulled it up. One piece of paper inside.
“Read it.”
I took it, and turned it around to see what the writing said. It was a plane ticket.
“What is this…?” I asked confused.
“I have a audition in New York next weekend and we know your birthday isn’t for another couple weeks, but we…”
“Shut up, no you didn’t” I said gazing at the ticket in my hand.
She began giggling.
“We wanted to bring you with us to New York for your early birthday.” She finished with a big smile on her face.
“I can’t… I mean, this-“
“It’s a gift, Abs. You have to take it.”
This was a good reason. I really wanted to go back to New York, I missed everyone there. My friends, I missed dearly. I hadn’t gotten to see any of them ever since I moved out to L.A.
“Bonus, Cody and Alli are going to be in NYC for 2 days the same time we’ll be there.” She added.
I paused for a second.
Downer.
“What do you think my mom will say about it?”
“She has to say yes! I’ll get my mom to call her, right now.” She quickly got out her phone and dialed her mom’s number.
She ran out the room and downstairs to my mom in the kitchen.
“Hey mom, can you talk to Liz about the tickets?” she said into the phone as I could hear her feet clacking down the stairs.
“Hey Liz, are you busy?” I heard her say as I ran down the stairs behind her.
“Not at all, why?” my mom said softly.
“My mom needs to speak to you.” She told her, as if she were getting in trouble.
“What’s this about Michelle… Uhhuh… Oh, really? Oh, goodness! No, we couldn’t-“
“Mom!” I said loudly, not a scream, but enough for her to realize that it did mean a lot to me.”
“She’s just not old enough… Well of course, but…. No, no. I know…. That’s way too generous…”
I stared at Madison for a second. Almost like I needed her to do something, we had to convince my mom that it was alright. We had to convince her I’d be fine.
“I’ll talk about it with Abs tonight and I’ll call you in the morning, okay Michelle?”
“Of course! Yes, sure. Tomorrow morning, definitely. Goodnight!” my mom said as she hung up the phone.
“Is that a yes, mom?” I asked her.
“No, not at all. Michelle is being way too generous with this.”
“It’s a gift for Abs, Liz!” Madison said a little louder.
“Even if. It’s not fair to stick your mom with two teenage girls in a city like NYC.”
“Mom! C’mon! I lived in NYC for almost all my life. I know how to get around, I know everything about NYC. We couldn’t get lost if we tried!” I explained to her.
“This is a closed discussion, Abigail. You’re not going. You’re not going to travel across the country without your mother-“
“Mom. I’m going to be turning 16, next year. Why are you making such a big fuss over this?” I said louder this time.
“You’re not even 15, yet, Abigail. You’re not old enough to go anywhere without your legal guardian.” She tried to say slowly.
“Michelle is going to be there, mom! Don’t you trust her?”
“Of course, I do. You- Well, you’ve gone out multiple times without my notice, you’ve slept over at a boy’s house without-“
“In all fairness, I hadn’t known and it is technically Alli’s house, too!”
“Either way, this conversation shouldn’t even be continuing. You’re not going. End of discussion.”
“If dad were still here, he’d let me go in a heartbeat.” I mumbled under my breath.
“You know well enough, Abigail, not to use your father against me. I am your mother, you will listen to me!” She screamed; louder than I’ve ever heard her scream in my life.
And she just left.
That was it.
End of discussion.

I knew what this was all about. She didn’t even like to hear about New York. For goodness sake, it could’ve been Orlando and she would’ve said yes, but because it was New York she denied.
“She never wants to hear about New York.”
“I think that’s why you guys left, right? Because… well… your mom wanted nothing to do with New York, anymore. And… I guess, hearing about you going without her is like you’re accepting what happened… but you’re mom… she hasn’t. You know?”
“That’s exactly what it is. It’s not like I’m asking her to come along, you know what I mean? It shouldn’t be blown up to something this big.”
“Well, we have a little over a week to convince your mom, so maybe that’ll be enough?”
“Plus, we know that Cody’s missing you.” She laughed as she jokingly winked at me.
“What?” I asked confused.
“Abs, stop playing it off like that.”
“Stop playing what off?” I demanded.
“Really…?” she realized my sincerity.
“Really.” I responded.
“You’re a smart girl, Abs. You’re acting really stupid right now.”
“Who’s acting?” I responded. Okay, that was a stupid answer, but I really didn’t have a clue what she was saying.

“We have to find a way to get you to New York… for your sake.” she said.

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“Taking my sloppy seconds, I see.” Brooklyn said quietly into my ear, as if with the loudness anyone could hear anything she said.
“Brooklyn.” Cody stopped her. I hadn’t seen him upset like this, ever.
“I thought I told you not to get in the way of any of this.” She gritted between her teeth.
“I..I didn’t even-“
“Brooklyn.” Cody interrupted me, signaling Brooklyn to stop.
“And you,” Cody pointed at his chest. “you lied to me. You said it wasn’t because of her. You told me us breaking up, it hadn’t-“
“She’s not the reason we broke up, Brooklyn.” Cody defended, trying his best to sound calm.
I needed to speak, but I wasn’t sure what to say.
“This is not the right place, Brooklyn.” He said looking at the couple of people who starred in our direction.
“So, where is the right place?” she said, a little louder this time to show her displeasure of Cody trying to shut her up.
“Why are you such a bitch?” I blurted out without realization. I had meant to just say it in my head, but for some reason it just came out. I hadn’t regretted it though. Not, yet.
“Excuse you?” she stopped between words. I just shook my head in disgust.
“You’re so full of yourself, you know that?” I yelled at her.
“Abby. Stop.” Cody sounded alarmed. I flinched at the name. Abby. I turned to look at him. I took a deep breath.
 I’m too soft. I won’t cry. I really won’t cry. Damn it.
—-
“Abigail! Wait!” I heard Cody yell for me. I sat down at a bench outside the amusement park. I tried to cover my tears quickly before he got a good look at me. I rubbed the bottom of my eyes, so that any mascara that smudged would be removed.
“What happened back there?” he sounded sympathetic. Not upset or mad. He sounded genuine, like he really wanted to know what came over me.
I took a deep breath before talking so that I wouldn’t squeak or begin crying when I spoke.
“It wasn’t Brooklyn, if you were thinking that was the reason,” I assured him, “I would never breakdown over something she’d say.”
“So, it was me?” he concluded.
“No… not technically.”
“So, in technicality it was my fault?”
“Technically.” I let out a small laugh, trying to lessen the tenseness of the mood. Not enough to make him smile, which got me a little worried.
“What was it? Like what did I-“
“Cody, stop it. It’s not your fault, you didn’t know.”
“Didn’t know what, exactly?”
I paused and took another deep breath. I looked him, and he was almost pleading. He really wanted to correct what happened here.
“Remember when you called me Abby?” I hesitated at the name. Abby. “I know it sounds kind of stupid, and it doesn’t really make sense but I can’t handle when people call me Abby.” I paused. He kept his eyes locked on me.
“My dad always called me Abby, and after he passed everyone just called me Abs, because every time someone said Abby, I could remember the way he said it, almost like he was there beside me, and just the thought of it…” I trailed off.
“I’m sorry,” he said solemnly.
“Don’t be. You didn’t know.” I tried to smile, so he wouldn’t feel as guilty as he seemed.
He hugged me, for a long time. I just sat there with his arms wrapped around me. I could feel him breathing, I could hear it every time he exhaled. Peaceful. That’s what it was, it was peaceful. This was out of instinct, but I’m sure he kept holding on because of our act. I didn’t care, though, because it felt good to have someone care as much as he did at the moment.
“Don’t you worry yourself about Brooklyn, she just wants to get on your nerve, and if you show that she is, she’ll want to put you down even more.” Cody said as he let go of me.
“Let’s me bring you home.” He smiled.
He grabbed my hand, which somewhat steadied my balance as I got up. His grip was comforting and it calmed me down from all the sobbing.
—-
I didn’t catch a break at all last night. I wanted to go home and just go to sleep after the long day, but I had forgotten to call my mom. She gave me an hour lecture on how I need to answer my cell phone. To be honest, though, I think she is more upset at the fact that I hadn’t told her I was going to be with Cody all day. I couldn’t even tell her it’s not even real and she didn’t let me bother to explain to her the whole thing.
I woke up in the morning with a pain in my chest and ringing in my head.
It was really painful, actually. I tried getting up, and I realized that it made things worse so I tightened my eyes and curled back into bed. I slowly reached for the clock beside my bed.
4:06AM.
Cody was leaving in about an hour and a half, and I wasn’t sure if I should get ready, but I was in too much pain to even try to.
I should really call him. I thought. I tried to sit up to find where I left my phone last night.
I patted the side of the table by my bed. Where was my phone?
I groaned as I got up. The pain in my chest got worse. I closed my eyes for a couple of seconds. I need to regain balance. I opened them back up. I need to sit on the floor, I thought to myself. I need to ease the pain, but I need to find that phone.
I reached below my bed. Geez, how the hell did it get there? I said to myself as I sat back up from getting a hold of my phone.
I placed it on my lap. The pain came back, almost like a wave moving back and forth. The pain jabbed hard at my chest. It was all the crying. I thought. Never have I been so weak. I took a deep breath and the pain banged at my chest again. My head spinning, in place.
Another deep breath. I need to call him. What would I say, though?
I wanted to be there to see him leave, the cameras would love that. The pain was beating at me, again.
I have to call him. I reminded myself.
Dial tone. Recent Callers. Cody Simpson.
Calling.
“Hey, Cody. It’s Abigail.”
“Hey,” he sounded tired.
“Did I just wake you?” I laughed. Stab in my side. I ignored it.
“No, I’m just not a morning person.” He said. I couldn’t help but laugh, even if he didn’t. More pain. Stop laughing, Abigail. I thought to myself.
“Are you still coming to the airport with us?” he asked. Still sounding a bit agitated.
“That’s what I was calling you about,” I paused. I almost felt wrong to say I couldn’t come.
I couldn’t not go. I had already agreed to this.
Take some Advil, Abigail. It’ll eventually pass. Okay.
“Were you guys leaving at 5 or 5:30?” I asked. Of course, I had already known the answer, but I needed an excuse.
“5:30,” he replied.
He seemed very irritable in the morning. I laughed at the thought. I couldn’t imagine Cody walking around, all annoyed at everything.
“Okay, I’ll be at your house in a little bit.” I tried to sound cheery, passed the pain that was punching me.
—-
The pain eased away, but I could feel the drowsiness taking over.
Coffee; just what I needed. The warmth felt good, the pain almost dissolved away.

I should really knock on their door and not just stare at it blankly. I thought to myself.
Knock. Knock.
Who’s there? I joked to myself.
No turning back, now.
“Hey, Abigail.” Cody’s mom came to answer the door. It was a tad awkward, but I was trying to make it not seem like it.
“Hey, Angie.” I smiled. Angie was gorgeous. Her pin straight hair was tied back perfectly and her eyes, like everyone else’s were not the boring brown, but a dazzling green. Her smile was so welcoming.
I looked beside the door and noticed the piles and piles of luggage cases they had lined up. It looked like they each brought their whole closets with them. I guess they weren’t the type of people to pack light.
“Hey, Abs!” Alli screamed. Same old peppy self, she was clearly an all day- all night, person. Or, maybe she was just really excited for the tour.
“Hey, Alli.” I laughed as she came to give me a hug. The pain stung a tad, but I wouldn’t let that ruin anything.
“Excited?” I asked.
“Extremely!” she sounded like she was announcing it to the world. I laughed at her excitement. I probably would be super excited too. Travelling was always fun and meeting people was always exciting.
“Where’s Cody?” I asked.
“Eager, are we?” she asked.  I gave her a neutral face. She began laughing at my reaction.
“Where’s your dad?” I asked, changing the subject.
“He’s probably in his room, last minute packing.” She said as she put locks on 3 matching suitcases. I think it was safe to say those were hers.
“And Tom?”
“He’s probably still sleeping.” She responded.
“Did you have breakfast, Abigail?” Angie asked as she walked out of the kitchen.
“Yes, I have.Thank you.” I smiled back at her.
“Are you sure I can’t get you anything?”
“I’m perfectly fine.” I responded.
Cody came running down the stairs, “Mum, have you seen- never mind, I got it.” He took the sweater off the banister.
“Hey, Abigail.” He said, as he noticed I was there.
“Hey,” I gave him a friendly hug. My chest hadn’t felt as bad. I took in a deep breath. The Advil helped.
He just laughed.
“What?” I asked him. I began looking for any imperfections, besides the obvious ones I couldn’t change.
There’s something in my teeth.
There’s a rip in my shirt.
My make-up is terrible.
He ran his hands through his hair and looked down to the ground- his cheeks almost crimson.
“I’m surprised you came.” He finished.
“I said I was coming, wasn’t I?” almost defending myself.
“Most girls wouldn’t wake up at 4am, go over to their friend’s house, and go along with them to the airport to see them before they leave.”
Confused. Legitimately confused. So, was he not expecting me to come? Did he ask me to come as a joke?
“No, don’t take it like that. I’m glad you came.” He assured. He probably saw the sinking look on my face.
—-

 I stood on the outside of the airport, watching as a man pulled out the luggage from the car. Brad and Cody helped him set them down. There was a lot, to be quite honest.
Alli and I decided to take her luggage inside.
“Okay, so let me get this straight. You’re flying out to Seattle and riding out on your tour bus.”
“Yeah, basically.” She responded.
“Cool, cool.”
“Look over there,” Alli said point to something behind me.
“What is it?” I asked before I turned around.
“Paparazzi. Looks like they’re ready for you and Cody.” She nudged me at my side.
“Just what I was preparing for,” I winked jokingly. We both laughed.
“Alli!” a voiced screamed to our left.
Madison hadn’t told me she was coming, if she had, we’d probably have came together. I was surprised to see her come out from the revolving door. Alli was surprised, she probably hadn’t known she was coming, either.
“Madison!” they ran to each other for a hug. True best friends, that’s what they were.
“Ahhh. I can’t believe you’re leaving.”
“I know! But we’ll be back soon enough.” Alli said as she sat down.
We said our hellos and we all spoke for a little while.
“Hey, missy. What are you doing here?” Cody said from behind us to Madison.
“Ahhhhh! Cody!” she screamed, which almost deafened me.
“I’m gonna miss you,” she said as she wrapped her arms around him.
“We’re gonna miss you, too.” He said, calmly.
Time to turn on the act. Smile, I reminded myself. I pursed my lips together as he looked towards my direction. My body nearly shaking at the nervousness of how well this had to look. It had to look like I was really going to miss him, which, in some sense, I knew I would. But, not in the way I was about act out.
“Do you really need all these bags?” I joked and looked to the bags that were piled behind me.
“A 3 month long tour needs different outfits every night,” he laughed.
Had he just said 3 months? They were going to be gone for 3 months? My body firmed up, a little. I hadn’t realized they were going to be gone for so long.
“3 months?” I asked sounding nearly shocked. Which, of course, I was.
“I hadn’t told you?”
He hadn’t. I just shook my head in confusion.
This changed a lot of things. 3 months… was a long time. I don’t know why it had struck so hard. I found myself breathing a little deeper than normal. I loosened my tense eyebrows and my shoulders fell.
Another deep breath.
“Don’t miss me too much.” He whispered into my ears, humorously.
“I’ll try not too” I joked back.
He pulled me in as he wrapped his arms around my neck, my arms draped around his waist. He kissed me on my forehead.
He was good at this.
I took a deep breath, it felt more of a relief. I closed my eyes for a while. Calming. I felt calm. The world went hush for a second.
I smiled.
Something felt right about this moment.

Something that held me down; something that didn’t want to let go.

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